
NEW YORK – As Ryan Hall slunk into his director’s chair on the dais,
the look of disappointment on his face told the whole story.
Hall
came into the ING New York City Marathon, which doubled as the U.S.
men’s marathon championship, with high expectations. Some even thought
he had a chance to win here.
Instead, he will leave with
another near-miss, a fourth-place overall finish in 2 hours, 10
minutes, 36 seconds, second-best among Americans to Meb Keflezighi, who
won the race in 2:09:15.
“It was a disappointing day for me to
be honest,” Hall said. “I felt like I was in better shape than that,
but the day was what it was.”
What it was is the latest painful
setback for Hall following his triumphant turn at the Olympic Trials
Men’s Marathon here in 2007. Since then, the Californian has finished
10th at the Beijing Olympics in 2:12:33, and third in the Boston
Marathon in 2:09:40.
Neither of those performances could be considered dismal.
Quite the opposite in fact.
Not many runners could hope for a Top 10 finish in their first Olympics or a podium spot in their first trip to Boston.
In that sense, Hall is perhaps his own worst enemy.
His
brash running style and dominant victory in the Trials led many to
anoint him, rightly or wrongly, as the savior of American distance
running. With that have come expectations of victory that are
unrealistic, or, at the very least, premature.
But Hall, and all of us, are realizing that winning the Trials and winning a major marathon are two different things.
“Honestly,
I don't know,” Hall said when asked about the expectations for him
before this race. “You know, I handled it the best I could. Felt really
confident and comfortable going into the race. You know, it was nothing
new. Every time I've been to the starting line of a major marathon,
people are expecting big things. I think I just expect a lot from
myself.
“So maybe this is going to be a good thing not to lower
my expectations, but just to, I guess just to go into it more humble
and expecting it to be hard, because it is hard. And, yeah, it's just
not easy to pick up a win in a major marathon. Everything's got to
click right on the day.”
At no point during the race did Hall
look ill-prepared or to be struggling. He employed a strategy that
seemed to indicate that he had learned from his mistake in Boston,
where he lead for most of the windy early stages before fading slightly
late. This time, he ran patiently in the pack and let other shield him
on a deceptively windy day.
“Yeah, you get in the wind and
you're out there leading,” Hall said, referring to Boston. “Then you
hear the people back in this media room being like what's he doing
leading this race in the wind, you know. And everyone back home is
giving me a hard time for leading in Boston into the wind. So you start
to second guess yourself. And honestly, it doesn't feel comfortable
when you're leading into the wind.”
Hall was right with the
other elite runners coming off the Queensboro Bridge. The pack found
itself chasing Hendrick Ramaala of South Africa, who made his signature
surge when seeing the crowds on First Avenue. But Hall and Keflezighi
helped reel Ramaala back in, and the American contingent hung tough
during the uphill section of First Avenue.
The pack began to
really separate after consecutive miles of 4:43 and 4:37. Hall, as well
as Americans Abdi Abdirahman and Jorge Torres fall off, leaving a group
of five men – James Kwambai, Robert K. Cheruiyot and Jackson Kipkoech
of Kenya, Abderrahime Bouramdane of Morocco, and Keflezighi – at the
front. By the 19-mile point, Hall had fallen 21 seconds off the pace.
“I
was kind of going in and out of feeling good and not feeling good,”
Hall said. “I think I made some tactical mistakes just sitting too far
back. I don't tend to run well at the back of packs. I was trying to
stay relaxed and trying to conserve as much energy as possible. I think
I need to be up in the mix more.”
Although he managed to salvage
his day by moving up to fourth place, it didn’t seem to ease Hall’s
disappointment much, which is understandable. Competitors aren’t after
moral victories.
“It's really disappointing when you don't feel
like you did as well as you were expecting to do,” he said. “I don't
know. I was looking at my splits out there, and I was like, man, I was
doing 18‑mile tempo runs at five‑minute pace, and the same split I hit
today at 7,000 feet in practice in the middle of 130‑mile weeks. So
when you start to see that it's easy to get down on yourself.
“I
invested a lot in this. I brought up a massage therapist and got two
hours of massage every single day. You're running for these kids out
there, trying to raise money for their schools. I wanted to bring home
a big paycheck for them, you know. I had a lot to run for with our
foundation that we're starting.
“I was thinking about my
family and my wife who has invested so much in me. I mean, there are so
many people, my coach, my teammates, everyone back home watching. You
want to do well not only for yourself but for them. And when you don't,
it's a big let down because you invest a lot, so it hurts a lot when
you don't hit it.”
So instead of the celebration at In-and-Out
Burger he was looking forward to back home, Hall again finds himself
picking up the pieces and moving on to the next opportunity to fulfill
those great expectations.
“It takes a couple of days, and then
you realize that there's going to be more opportunities and you learn
from it,” he said. “I think you learn a lot more from your
disappointments than you do from the times that you win. And it's good
to have a good humbling experience every once in a while. I always run
my best races after a humbling experience. In a couple of days I'll
turn my head toward the spring and start looking forward to that.
“I’ll get over this.”